Today is the first time in a while I'm... hurting. Not like I have been... but how I was three years ago. Pain in my chest worry and hurt and fearful. Are things going to work out? Am I making the right choices? Do I need to go to school? Do I need to get a government job? Worries that I've been praying for and praying for, are suddenly overwhelmingly terrifying. My chest hurts, I feel scared... I just want to be okay. I feel like my Faith is slipping, and that I'm not good enough. Like everyone else has found better people to talk to and I'm sitting here wondering why all of the people whom I've picked up and carried through their pain and darkness have all abandoned me. I just need to keep praying..... keep moving forward... and leaving behind the people who've left me.
Love,
Alice
No comments:
Post a Comment