There's no time to watch Zombie Television anymore, I'm too busy actually being a zombie. Still not used to my new job yet, two paychecks in and it still kicks my butt to wake up at 6:30 in the morning and commute. Now for a lot of people who do this all of the time -I salute you. But I am only doing this 2 days a week. Mixed with my other job. And I'm not a morning person. And my coworkers are grave-robbing quiet. And it's boring. So essentially, I have become a total zombie six days out of the week -the day before I try to go to bed when I know what's coming, the day of when I can't wake up, and the day after when I'm totally exhausted. One day, I will have another job that I love. But for right now I am trapped. Trapped like a bird in a cage. Polly wanna cracker anyone? Yep. That's me. Zombie bird in a cage.
I keep wondering the fastest way that I can fix this, to not be so dependant on jobs that make me feel chained to a desk, but there is no quick fix for this. Just a long, slow, devastating process of keeping a firm grip on my money and reality. The nice thing about it is that it does allow me to focus on what matters, to really be greatful for my friends who understand because they're going through this too, and for my fiance who's there every step of the way. I know that things will all balance out eventually, and until then I will "just keep swimming"!
Love,
Alice
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